Reflection

There are days for whatever reason you feel extremely lucky to be you. Maybe it was just a good day/evening with your family (the kids actually behaving and not screaming at you) or maybe you just get a moment to step back and realize all that you have. If you are lucky enough you may have these thoughts every day. For me, now after 2 kids, there isn't a lot of time to step back and live in the moment. I am constantly thinking about what I need to do next as I'm sure most Mothers do. In a way, Maddox has given me back so of that time. I am forced to sit in his dark, quiet room and feed him right before bed and while he is eating I am left with my thoughts. So here are a few things I was thinking about.

I have the most amazing husband. He may not always be amazing 24/7, but as a whole HE IS AMAZING! He works so hard for his family, sometimes to a fault. He makes it possible for me to stay at home with Grace & Maddox. He knows everything about me (the good, the bad & the ugly) and he still loves me and thinks I am beautiful. Since our kids he has been bumped down on the priority list (not on purpose and probably not a good thing) but he has, and he doesn't complain or hold a grudge. He thinks it's great that I enjoy living in San Antonio and I have met so many new friends, even though he is somewhat miserable here. He is my perfect match. I thank God for him and the path He brought me down so that I was able to find Dan.

I always knew I wanted children and a little girl would have been perfect. 2 1/2 years ago I got my wish when My Little Grace was born. She loves to snuggle, always have and may always will. She has the most incredible personality. She is almost always happy and her smile lights up a room and melts my heart. She has so much soul and joy in her eyes and she always knows when to say the right thing. Today we were sitting on the couch and out of the blue she said "you're a good Mama, I love you." I love you too Grace!

I never really imagined having a boy. I always thought I wanted girls (better selection on clothes!). But when I found out I was pregnant that is all I wanted and I cried (happy tears) when they told me I was having my boy. Obviously, I have heard of the mother/son connection, but you can't even begin to understand it until you have your own little boy. I am only 9 weeks in and I already can feel that bond. We haven't even begun to scratch the surface of Maddox's personality, only time will tell, but he already has an infectious smile with such happy eyes. I love him!

Okay, my time is up. All I can say is thank you for these 3 individuals that have all touched my life. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Goodnight.